literature

Never Or Always

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Published: Jan 21, 2007

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Literature Text

I stand at the alter, uncertain if I belong
One voice says never, the other says always
I’m uncertain which to hear, which to rebuke
One must be truth, the other lie, but which is which?

I fidget and sway, overtaken by confusion
Which to choose, which to choose?
My mind wanders, I begin to sweat
I do not belong, I cannot belong

I remember the past, the mistakes made
Forsaking my Lord, choosing my sin
I cannot belong, I’ve done so much wrong
Yet I know, even through that, which voice to hear

The Voice speaks, my fidgeting ends
He says to come, that peace will follow
I look before me, the figure bright as the sun
He beckons, I come

The first step, the lying voice desperate
The second step, the voice fades to a whisper
The third step, and the voice fades to nothing
I embrace Him, peace overtaking pain, love covering sin

Once again I will say this: I'm not a poet. I just haven't felt like drawing anything lately, so I've been writing instead. There are three areas in this poem which I don't like the flow of, but don't feel up to changing at the moment.

Anyways, I wrote this after writing another poem, but, as you may have noticed, I don't always share my poetry

. That poem was directed toward God, this one towards Christians, so out of the two I'm gonna share the one towards other people.

This poem is speaking of today and thursday during worship. Lately I've been getting pounded by Satan telling me that I can't have real worship because of my sin. But, everyone sins. Yes, there are a few things that I need to take care of, but the same for everyone else. And you know what? I see people with sinful problems have really good worship. They don't let the bondage just hang, of course, but it's still there. So, I wrote this. Satan says I don't belong at the alter, Jesus says yes. Even though I've sinned. When I come to Him, He forgives me (which wasn't actually what I was thinking when I wrote it, I just went with where it seemed to be going)

So, even though you may have some problems with sin, that doesn't mean you can't worship God. Yes, it needs to be dealt with, but won't get dealt with if you don't get in touch with the big guy Himself. He's the only one that can fix it, whatever you try won't give you actually peace with it, and will most likely fail if you're really addicted.

update~ a few minor edits